Adjustment Bureau

Tonight I am watching the Adjustment Bureau and it got me thinking about all the small daily activities and choices I have made that have helped shape who I am today. If I hadn't went to clubs fair my first day of University I may have never joined a sorority, which means I would have never made some of my best friends, met my ex boyfriend, I would have had a different place to live for the last three years. If I didn't live where I am now, I would be living somewhere else, with different people and different experiences. So much could have been different. 

Would I want it to be different? There are certain things I would change. If I could go back in time and have one do over I would go back to my first year of university and stick it out in Kelowna. I think I would have learnt more life lessons living there. I would have grown up more. Instead I let heartbreak dictate my place of residence. I ran away from fears and in doing so I ran away from my first real test of adulthood.

It freaks me out thinking about what adult life will be like. One more year and I enter into a world of independence. I wont have to rely on my parents to help me financially. I will be able to make my own decisions without the guilt of what they will think in regards to my choices. That life scares me. The freedom of it all. I don't know what my life will be like if I wasn't a student.